Now is the start

Something in the air is making me consistently cheerful and I am not complaining. Last year was a roller coaster but with more highs than lows. Definitely more highs. It would be pretty hard to beat 2012 but with all these adventures that I have planned for 2013, I bet it's going to be even better.

I have a song for 2013 and it makes me giddy each time I hear it. It seems that A Fine Frenzy has successfully (again!) put into words all my feelings.

Also, Alison Sudol is perfect. She dyed her hair blonde and is short and choppy now, just like mine. I adore her.

I can't be the girl who takes long bus rides anymore

I woke up to a text message from a friend today, and now I'm probably having a major depressive episode. I replied back but my friend didn't so I ended up checking online whatever the matter was. I was tagged to this link, I kind of started to panic. I checked it out and before I even finished it I wanted to cry and vomit my guts out at the same time. You see, years back sometime in 2007, I just turned 21 or was about to turn 21 I think, I met my Sir Gawain but I lost him on that same day.

It was that lost chance that I'll never get back. I tried to  look for him years ago but I stopped because I can't be the girl who takes long bus rides without any reason anymore. And this makes me sad because, I'm not as brave as how I used to be. I want to be inspired again, to write compulsively again and be the girl who wears flip flops during a rain storm who is unafraid to make a connection while in a freezing bus ride back home.